I'm stuck

I'm 19 severely depressed, half way homeless, and stuck. I can't work, I can't meet new people, I can't talk to girls and the anxiety I constantly feel makes me extremely uncomfortable all the time. I've given up trying to look good as it really doesn't matter if I dress up and get a hair cut when my appearance is ruined my bright red cheeks. I got prescribed metro gel which I used for a week then stopped cause it was making my face redder and more broken out. I've been drinking heavily recently cause it makes me not care. I feel like there's nothing I can do to make myself feel better for the long term . I can't afford to spend thousands on bullshit expensive medications or lazer therapy and when a bottle of booze is 15 bucks I just say fuck it. This disease has turned me into drug addict plain and simple. I think about killing myself probably once a week. It's a terrible feeling knowing that I have absolutely no control over my life and the way I feel. I just want to know how do people cope with this disease in a healthy way?

I'm stuck