Difference between flushing and blushing and how to live with this

i have read so many posts and members may say they are a flusher or blusher or both and I wondered what the difference is. Also I noted that some members do not seem as anxious or desperate as others and seem to have a more relaxed philosophical attitude and still partake in life. Unfortunately I have fallen into the panic/anxious mode group and have become reclusive and feel paralyzed by this. The fear and uncertainty make me jittery all the time and totally unproductive. At 5' 4" my weight has dropped to 93 lbs and I eat a lot . It is nervous energy I'm sure. My whole day and every thought revolve around this and what to do to solve it. I just want to escape. I am seeing my doctor today as I have begun having intense panic attacks. Any advice from those who have learned how to be more chill would be greatly appreciated . Most the time lately I feel like jumping off a cliff

Difference between flushing and blushing and how to live with this